Global Motorsport Media
Sebastien Buemi was close to tears after exiting Sunday's Indian Grand Prix in a cloud of smoke.
The Swiss is under immense pressure to prove to Toro Rosso that he should be retained for 2012, as team owner Red Bull looks to place young hopefuls Daniel Ricciardo and Jean-Eric Vergne.
Jaime Alguersuari on the other hand appears increasingly established at the Faenza based team and in India pulled out his gap to Buemi to 11 points.
Buemi however was running eighth when his Ferrari engine failed.
He solemnly admitted to Blick newspaper that, given the driver situation for 2012, his current form is worrying.
"Sure. For 2012 only the results matter," said the Swiss on the eve of his 23rd birthday.
"I hope the bosses will see that out of us (Buemi and Alguersuari) I'm the fastest driver on the track.
"Without luck, what can I do? I give everything but you're helpless against fate. I will continue to push even though I've never seen so much Scheisse (sh*t)."
There are just two races left in 2011 for Buemi to show Red Bull that he should continue to be backed.
I give everything but you're helpless against fate
"In Abu Dhabi and Brazil you will again see a strong fight from me, even though I have much to lose in the battle. But I never give up," he said.
As for whether he sees himself at Toro Rosso for a fourth consecutive season in 2012, he answered: "I can only hope."